well so far, ive slept almost the whole day away, i got nice and wasted lastnite, it helped me forget about all that was going wrong in my life..my mother is annoying me again like she used 2 do when i was a teenager, i dont need her 2 constantly think she can make the right decisions for me..im just tired of it..i gotta make a goal 2 get my own place by the end of this year..i cant stand living with her anymore..shes really really gettin 2 me..i need my own personal space..somewhere that i can do my own thing and have no one waiting up 2 see me stumble in..i cant stand it any longer..

at least this weekend ive pretty much managed 2 avoid moe, or thinkin of him..which is a very good thing, i think his lil "plan" of supposedly seeing someone is working..i totally talk 2 him and see him as a friend now..of course im not gonna forget about the great times we shared but im not gonna dwell on them like ive been doing lately..

im finding some new music now, ive just started downloading Metric, i love it, its so much like Stars..its beautiful stuff, i gotta get ricky into it..he will love it too im sure..i downloaded some Le Tigre and some My Bloody Valentine too..im tired of the mainstream ness of america..im breakin into new ground for myself..

i got another copy of Galore this weekend..i couldnt stand not having the original any longer..i also got a new copy of Ok Computer by Radiohead too, my other version is all scratched up..

lots of craziness in my life yet again..who knows when it will end..apparently some ppl still want me in their life, if they call me nearly every dayjust 2 talk like old times..i just cant stand the "ill call u right back" shit that turns into they will call u the next day..

i got a new book, its called Be Honest, you're really not that into him either. HA! its great so far, teaching me that i dont have 2 settle for 2nd best again..and its kinda funny cuz in my last relationship i kinda wasnt that into him but then it became routine and i got used 2 him..but really hes not my type, besides the tattoos..lol..oh well..im learning..learning not 2 care is quite a task..well im working on it at least..im out..gotta practice my guitar..